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The cycle of love and solitude by thefifthorder The cycle of love and solitude by thefifthorder
The cycle of love and solitude
my experience with love...

Closeups can be found here: [link]

Please take the time to read the story before looking at image, because it's pointles
to just look at it without knowing the story, believe me.

Concept/Story behind it all
Before September, 2003, my life was quite boring, I had no expectations as of what was about to happen...

In September, 2003, I had fell in love with a girl...this girl was so down to earth, fun to be with,
adorable, caring, any the list goes on...let's just say it was everything I could wish for. Thankfully,
she had felt the same for me, on November 5th, 2003, we officially started dating. For the next 2 years,
our love developed rapidly and deeply, it had seem to us that we were married. There was nothing that we
cannot tell each other, nothing that we cannot do together, I felt like I was in heaven.

Unfortunately, things had started to change, there were signs of her losing feelings...I've tried so hard to recover
the lost love she had for me...but no matter how hard I tried, things would only seem to go downhill. Early
September, 2005, I confronted her about the problems I've been noticing and her behavior towards me nowadays...
and indeed, she had finally admitted that she had lost feelings for me. The reason? Because it's been too long.
It never occured to me that being in love with someone so much, the feelings could simply dissolve because of time.
We officially broke up after that conversation. I never blamed her for breaking up like that, because she had simply
followed what her heart told her, perhaps it was something I did that made her start loosing feelings. Whatever it may
be, it wasn't her fault.

For the next 2 months, I still tried my best to recover her, perhaps finding a way to erupt her feelings again. I tried and
tried...because I valued this relationship more than living itself. And in the end, I was rejected countless times..now it
seems as if I cannot even be her friend. It really hurts...and to this day, 6 months after breaking up, I'm still hurt...I still
constantly think about her. Could someone tell me why?

When we were together for the 2 years, I felt so good, so inspired by life itself, I enjoyed everything I could possibly do/get.
I had realized that without that love, I feel so empty. Whenever I listen to the music I used to listen to and do the things I used
to do, I feel as though something's missing, I do not know what, but it's like I'm just a shell now. It's back to the days of life
before September 2003, the days of solitude...

The actual image
Everything in these set of images were done in cinema4D, even the sky. The only postwork is the bird silouhettes.
This piece was also to push myself further as a artist, I wanted to see if I would be able to set a different mood/feeling with the
exact same render, exact same scene, but with variation in angle and placement of render. I am quite satisfied with the result, I think
I have conveyed my ideas well.

The first panel - The first panel is suppose to show "love is in the air", with all the optimism, hope, and everything
good that you feel when you are first in love with someone. That's why I had created a render with wings and hearts.The birds were
placed in the way that's suppose to make the viewer feel "optimism" the first panel is to summarize everything I had felt in the first 2
years with my ex-girlfriend, Sharon.

The second panel - The second panel demonstrates the downfall of the relationship. I had attempted to place the 2
renders in a way that makes them look kind of shy, turned away, and depressed. The energetic birds from the first panel is now scattered
and hearts(representing our love) are falling onto the floor now.

The third panel - Last but not least, the final panel is to show solitude. I tried to emulate the feeling by having such an
angle/perspective. There is only 1 render now(hence solitude) which is cut off half way up. That is to show the lonliness, anoymous, and
boredom aspects of solitude. There is no energy in this final panel, nothing inspiring, just plain as ever.

Final thoughts
This piece is also to serve as a tribute to 2 of my favorite surreal artists, Salvador Dali and Rene Magritte. If you guys search their names
on google, i'm sure you'll find the similarity in style. That's all folks, I hope you guys like this and the meaning behind it all.

Original @ 2400x5800 @ 300dpi
The fifth order.
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:iconkikudesign:
kikudesign Featured By Owner May 17, 2008
Being able to express what in ur heart is the most valuable asset u had acquired...Let it prosper and it will bring lots of beauties to this world..keep it up..u have done a great job...May u soon find someone who will walk this path with u....Best wishes from me to u
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OneStory Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2007  Student General Artist
wow, awesome.
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:iconrchitkara:
Rchitkara Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2006
you know, i know exactly how you feel, yea im only 15 , but im stil going through it all.... great piece.... with a great message too.
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:iconthefifthorder:
thefifthorder Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2006  Professional Digital Artist
:)
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:iconjsmonzani:
jsmonzani Featured By Owner Jul 14, 2006  Professional Photographer
:clap: Great design, really!
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:iconstrave:
strave Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2006
buddy you are not alone with this! girls are deciding and to recocgnize that even when you give everything that you have will never be enough to get her must be some of the greatest pain on earth. it means total rejection. time is our biggest enemy ..it takes all people that we need away from us and love is a war somehow in my opinion.. anyway great work, i love the concept because i exactly can feel what youre on about +fav
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:iconthefifthorder:
thefifthorder Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2006  Professional Digital Artist
Exactly bro, thanks for the understanding :)
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:iconubuth:
ubuth Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2006
Perfectooooooo :clap: + fav:)
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:iconhello-mitzi:
hello-mitzi Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2006   Photographer
beautiful work!!!
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:iconhotundernet:
hotundernet Featured By Owner Apr 10, 2006   Digital Artist
just one name: salvador dali'
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DISENT Featured By Owner Apr 1, 2006  Professional Digital Artist
sorry I don't have the time to read the story right atm, its 3:30 am & i must sleep, but I instantly love this picture despite not having read the story! its just so fantastic & original, one of those rare images that makes me go wow out loud:) thanks for creating this it's beautiful, I'll fav it now & come back & read the story tomorrow. peace
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:iconendlessraine:
endlessraine Featured By Owner Mar 31, 2006
:heart:
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:iconthefifthorder:
thefifthorder Featured By Owner Mar 31, 2006  Professional Digital Artist
:aww:
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:iconlionrock:
lionrock Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2006
sO crzy in dev!! :hug:
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thedobofdob Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2006
This looks really nice. The concept is great and you executed it perfectly. One thing nagging me though, add a phong tag to your model, i don't really like seeing the polygons.

matt
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:iconthefifthorder:
thefifthorder Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2006  Professional Digital Artist
i did that for a reason :)
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:iconthedobofdob:
thedobofdob Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2006
o ok =]
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:iconviremaster:
viremaster Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2006  Hobbyist Digital Artist
very daliish really nice image =)
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:iconbrandonc1:
Brandonc1 Featured By Owner Mar 3, 2006  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Second panel. FTW!
Dude why write so much. Makes me not wanna read any comments ever made. =P
Kidding bra.

Thats sex though. I am tired of you.. Being better at sex than me. xD =P

Great piece. I am feelin it. :heart:
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:iconthefifthorder:
thefifthorder Featured By Owner Mar 3, 2006  Professional Digital Artist
:D
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:icondrkpr0ph3t:
DRKPR0PH3T Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2006  Professional Traditional Artist
sometimes love isn't as tangible as feelings, it is just having someone near you to keep you company.
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cryssy Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2006
omg wow jeffie face.......that's fricken deeeeep!!

i love the first panel, the warmness of the colours: espeicallythe sky :D and i love the birds !! hehe i thought the wings were dead ciacdas X_X heeh buggiesss!

i think you should've chnaged the colour of the sky like a gradation towards a grey sky or grey-blue. something not so warm to help convey solitude and sadness.

other than that, lovely piece! i favoritedededed it :D :D lols ...

see you laterrr!! :hug:
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Syretrip Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2006
Not sure if i have commented this already.
But awesome work.
Great atmosphere, and i love the render work.
The form of the renders is great.
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:icondarkwarlock:
DarkWarlock Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2006
WOW on the preview I thought it was a picture xDDD

really great work
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:iconcriminalart:
criminalart Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2006
Love this a lot bro!
These sequential images are just awesome.
this one reminds me of Dali's paintings on some parts.

:+fav:
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:iconthefifthorder:
thefifthorder Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2006  Professional Digital Artist
glad it does man, it was what i was going for :handshake:

thanks!
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:iconnkeo:
NKeo Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2006
Wtf I love conceptual things like this one!
great job man!
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:iconfat3oy:
fat3oy Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2006
fuc*** amazing!!
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Xeno-Fx Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2006
i was in a relationship very similar to yours... i was crushed, but after many years of solitude... i found the right one. Our past experiences are there to teach us lessons... as far as the pain goes, no artist lives a life without suffering.
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Korpus- Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2006  Professional Interface Designer
great concept and awesome objects.
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:iconomzig89:
omzig89 Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2006  Hobbyist General Artist
I won't say Salvador Dali. oops I just did. Well, I just love stuff of this dreamy, otherwordly style.
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rwalby9 Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2006
I was in your position for a while Jeff. I went and got some counseling(helped a bit), and talked to my friends about it. Surprisingly they all helped a lot and were very supportive. I had to let it go, but couldn't. Ever. I found that it takes a real man to get over something like that, and even more of one to get back on your feet. I was able to, shall we say, "recover" in about a month. In the end, she decided to come back to me so that worked our(we are at a year now :D)

Great artwork :D
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:iconinsanemoe:
Insanemoe Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2006  Professional Digital Artist
yuo are a genius... this is AWSOME!!!

I recognize Dali at the first sight
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:iconjuss:
juss Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2006  Student
nice work, i like the images and the description, i guess most people can relate to it the story, i know i can.
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8404 Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2006
very nice mate, keep up the good work
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oCeyx Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2006  Hobbyist General Artist
You've succeeded, y'know why? I viewed the image before I was able to scroll down and take note of what you requested. And even so, the concept, the feeling, what you were aiming for; it all shined through. The description matched what I instantly felt when the image loaded.

The symbolism is potent even though you held back on it.
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moonground Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2006  Hobbyist Digital Artist
So sad story and beautiful concept! The birds look so great on part 1 and 2... were they brushes?
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:iconthefifthorder:
thefifthorder Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2006  Professional Digital Artist
they were from stock images :)
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helpman Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2006
"better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all" at least thats the saying thx to shakespear...

made a nice work, the feeling behind it is really strong :+fav: and goodluck, time heals all wounds, so they say
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:iconthefifthorder:
thefifthorder Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2006  Professional Digital Artist
that quote is very true...thanks :)
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:iconhelpman:
helpman Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2006
i know, i loved a girl too so much....but too bad there was nothing mutual...well my fellings were grand i gotta say that... but one can surpass it all i hope, u will, i'll bet on that ;)
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:iconenfero:
Enfero Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2006  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'm really out of words here. Beautiful piece with great symbolism. :heart:
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Fractured-Visual Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2006  Hobbyist Digital Artist
brilliant!
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septic Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2006  Professional Digital Artist
really nice work man. though to make the concept clearer you shouldve set the right ammount of hearts, like in the last frame seeing two hearts makes me think theres still two lovers but if i got it right she doesnt feel any love anymore.

if the first frame should symbolize the togetherness you both had, i think it wouldve been good to have those two main objects same sized. at the moment it looks a bit like a king - servant relationship to me. tho the different sizing in the second frame does make sense in that regard.

anyways i like it very much : ) keep it up
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:iconthefifthorder:
thefifthorder Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2006  Professional Digital Artist
oh and to discuss the "two hearts make me think theres two lovers" thing, The 2 renders are suppose to symbolize us actually, the hearts are just a aspect of us. So in the last panel, theres only me(1 render) left, she's gone.

In the first frame, the reason why they arent the same size is only because i wanted that dramatic pespective, which allows the birds to do the talking. Though I understand what you mean man.

:hug:
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:iconthefifthorder:
thefifthorder Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2006  Professional Digital Artist
thanks man I understand what you're saying :)
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ThomasBrewsterDesign Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2006  Professional General Artist
Nice job!!!
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mrecko999 Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2006
not diggin it
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tremorwave Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2006
dali-tastic and a truly meaningful story behind it... I feel for you mate :heart:
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:iconthefifthorder:
thefifthorder Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2006  Professional Digital Artist
thanks Ed :hug:
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